Dear Andrew,
Happy 1st Birthday! I can still feel my emotions from one year ago today. I was completely overwhelmed with joy, pride (and relief). I was so relieved to be done pushing…I forgot to look for your face. You were whisked away from me and I just looked up at the ceiling, smiled and cried. I remember saying “Oh, my God” over and over. And “We have a baby.” Of course, I knew you were a boy…I had consulted the crystal and Oma had done some tests, plus one of the housekeepers at the hospital told me I would have a boy. So, I wasn’t surprised when Dr. Cabe said, “It’s a boy”. Once you were cleaned up and checked out, a nurse placed you on my chest and in my arms. I couldn’t believe I was holding you.

And in all of the commotion and emotion, after we had nursed for the first time, you were taken to the nursery to get a blood test (or something…sorry I don’t remember).
And it wasn’t until then that I realized I hadn’t studied your face.
I asked your Daddy if he knew what you looked like.
Would he know if they brought us someone else and not our baby boy?
I was panicked.
How were you able to turn my life upside down in less than 3 hours!?!?!
Oh, how you have changed my life.
I never knew what being a mother would be.
I thought about it, I read about it, I talked to other mothers about it, and I prayed about it.
But, I have to tell you this has been nothing like what I expected and greater than any experience I have had to date.
You are a true blessing and I love watching over you and watching you grow.
I am so proud of you.



I have been proud to be Grandmom and PopPop’s daughter.
I have been proud to be Uncle Chris and Uncle Mike’s sister.
I have been proud to be your father’s wife.
None of these compare to the pride I feel as your mother. And I am bowled over when I see someone else’s face in yours.
I have seen your father and myself sometimes in there.
Usually, I see your cousins and my cousins in your face.
It’s amazing. I feel so proud to have connected you to the Holland/McDevitt and Osler/Self family trees.
Andrew Patrick, you are my special, special boy, my pride and joy. Oh, how I love you…I’m so glad we got you. I am grateful to God that He sent you to us.

Happy 1st birthday, Andrew. I love you.
Love,
Mommy